Sometimes as your understanding abilities rises...
It only makes you sink deeper...
Deeper into the depths of despire...
With the fact that when you can finally understand something...
You also realise how little you can do about it...
About something...
About someone...
And negative energy start to form around you...
Tell you...
It's useless...
You're useless...
Course there's nothing you can do about anything...
Or anyone...
And it happens to be the one you love...

Before today...
I was thinking why he can't be more like Edward (Twilight)
Or Ray (my made up character)
But now...
The only thing i had in mind was...
人有事的时候，
可以求神拜佛。
但当神也有事的时候，
他们又可以求谁？
自己？
Can they?
Can us?